Day 93: Mom Fail

Today started off rough for me. First, we were running late which always adds stress to an already stressful situation which is getting the kids up early enough to have breakfast and get dressed for school. Daddy and I were bickering at one another (because yes, we are known to do that occasionally), and as I was backing out of the driveway realized I was out of gas. Same with him. But that's not even the worse of it. No, today was (or at least I thought it was) Skylar's "Spring Chapel Performance." So add all of the above plus trying to get everyone dressed for this means S-T-R-E-S-S!!! Once we got there, we found a seat and I had a moment of panic. "Where are all the other parents?" Just as I was beginning to walk out to the foyer, I noticed several parents walking in with cameras and felt relief. So first up was pledges, then prayers, and then today were some praise and worship songs. After that was done, the first grade teacher got up and told her class to find their place on stage to begin the story of Joseph. Oooookay, so maybe the first graders are going first and then Pre-k? After each kid in this class read an entire paragraph, it started to settle in my mind that this cannot be right? What does Skylar's "It's A Wonderful World" have anything to do with the story of Joseph? I took this opportunity to sneak up and ask Mrs. Cooper who looked confused and said "no, that was last week - Skylar missed it." I couldn't get out of there fast enough before I just sobbed in the parking lot. Matthew was NO help, laughing at my reaction. I could NOT calm myself down though. I've let my little girl down - again. If I hadn't been so distracted by Easter and packing and getting out on time, I would've paid closer attention to the schedule and now she missed this performance that she's been waiting to show us. What's worse is that because I was so distraught and couldn't wrap my mind around how we missed it, was that we took off and I didn't even explain to her what had happened. I got home and quickly sent an email to her teacher asking if she was alright and she was. But man, it was an emotional day. My friends all tried to assure me that these things will happen, especially with 3 but I am determined to avoid it at all cost. At least one little girl was determined to make mama smile, regardless...

Once that mess was over, it was off to get gas and breakfast! Bryce wanted "bi-cuits" so we got some chicken biscuits then headed to do some shopping. I didn't want to come back to my messy house or to sit down and pay bills. I just needed time to clear my head. So we headed to REI and there found a new ride for little miss...

Yes, another stroller. I've lost count of how many I have but BOB is my favorite stroller by far. I looooooove my double but it's just too wide to push around on quick trips. Which meant getting out the big infant stroller because it was more narrow and she's too young for an umbrella stroller. But this thing is harder to drive then anything. It might be more narrow but it's a HUGE pain in the bottom. The main problem I encountered is that I aim to run at least 3 times a week and 2 of those days are days the kiddos are at school. Up to this point I was pushing Eva in the double but with her carseat, it sways heavily to one side, making it a struggle. So after talking it over with daddy, he said yes. Whoot! And it's clearly going to be around for a while because look how tiny she is in it.

Once it was time, I raced to school to get Skylar and held up carline for a bit to love on her and tell her how sorry I was. She knew just what I was apologizing for because her response was "we didn't have a song today, mama. And after chapel you and daddy weren't there. You didn't even give me a hug!" Fail. Matthew and I promised her that we will get her all dressed up and she can perform it for us and Nana and Papa's, followed by cake and ice cream. She seems okay with the idea! ;)